I tend to cry a lot these days. The joke used to be that my mom was the one who was always “half a second from crying about anything”. I believe that joke now applies to me more. Most often, they aren’t sad tears, they’re more like, “how cute” tears. Or even “STOP SAYING NICE THINGS TO ME” tears. So here’s a little list of things I cried over in the last couple days (without exaggeration):
- Cried when I saw a needy man and his dog on the side of the road in the rain. Specifically because the dog had no coat.
- Cried when I couldn’t get an online order to go through. (I realized I had the wrong card information… and then cried more.)
- Cried while doing yoga. (Nope I don’t know why.)
- Cried when my pastor talked about the first time his dad told him he was proud of him.
- Cried when my roommate told me I was a good friend.
- Cried when I couldn’t find the right shade of green for my coloring book.
One thing I’m definitely learning through all this? How good and okay emotions are. Do I want to tear up with each passing emotion, literally? Not really. Do I? Yes. It’s like my body desperately needs a release from all the stimulus flowing through it right now, and so I cry. There’s a part of me that is embarrassed when it happens, and then I quickly just accept that it is happening. As each tear falls, I feel a sense of detox and release.
For this season of my life, crying over the good, bad, and cute is acceptable. So if you see me crying, feel free to ask if I’m okay… just be prepared to laugh with me at the same time as the tears fall.
Be brave friends. He is with you.